hurt.

it's just that.. everythings not the same.. && i dont feel the same..
IMISSYOU SO BAD IT HURTS.. you might think im alright..
but you know very well.. deep inside me, im bleeding.. T_T

my S!

Life is unfair. there are things i don’t understand. things, which i wish doesn’t hurt me but sadly, does. more so than how much i admit.

am i being selfish for feeling this way? would it make me a bad person if i feel this way? all i want is sensitivity. if ”chorva” is done, at least let it be done where i couldn’t see it.

CHORVA. i just don’t know the right word for it. but anyway– TUMATAGOS SA PUSO. ayun.

i wish pasts had closures before starting life all over again. i wish explanations were given when asked for. i wish it doesn’t hurt as much as it does. but when did wishes really come true? in movies? crap.

in life we make our own outcomes. we work our asses off for the things we want. so if i want to stop hurting, i must put more sense into this brain of mine. i can’t let myself be taken over by emotions.

but then– WHY NOT. i am human. and as invincible as i may seem, i am frail. if there’s one side of me i vow never to let anyone see, it would be my weak and vulnerable side. ’cause letting them see that would mean i have nothing left. so forgive me if i don’t admit pain, jealousy nor sadness. that’s just the way it is.

i don’t want to know. and i don’t want to see. BUT GOD DAMN IT, I CAN SEE. and it hurts. it stings, my dear. @@

but you always have the right words. the right everything. i see you and im alright again. no one defeats me as much as you do and i hate it.

i am defeated when you’re around, but i take it cause it’s also the time when i win. it’s all too hard to explain. but it’s all good.

I AM OKAY. i guess so:|

The Day The Sky Cried.

I love you, you love me Take this gift and don't ask why Cause if you'll let me I'll take what scares you hold it deep inside And if you ask me why I'm with you and why I'll never leave

Love will show you everything


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first day of 2nd sem. waaaaaaaaa, parang kelan lang. 5 months to go && byebye HS na. tsk:| ayun.. nagsimula ang araw ko this day pagkagising ko.. naligo ako at nag ayus at pumunta ng school at natagalan dahil sa pinakamamahal kong kapatid na si nareeza na antagal tagal mag ayos ng kanyang sarili.. HAHA! matapos ay naghanap ng tricy.. after 5-10 mins.. nakarating na kami ng wmsu.. nasopresa ako ng husto dahil.. dahil.. dahil.. :D ayun si BF nag aantay sa guarhaus..(sweet) haha!! kaya ayunn. antagal nia na daw nag antay.. aba't malay ko ba noh! inosente ako.. dba?:p soooooooooooo... ayun.. dun na sya nag breakfastt.. dhil dih pa raw nakapag breakfastt. wawa man.. tskk:| pero ayus lan.. sulit naman daw.. haha! matapos ay nagsimula na ang program sponsored by 9-JADE.. after an hour ata.. ayun as usual balik room na kami at check papers.. blablabla.. tick tock tick tockk... ayun recess na. ^^ di ako naka labas kagad.. dahil,nakatulog ako sa room.. HAHAHA!!pero lumabas din naman ako at nagrecesss. ^^ matapos balik room na kce time na.. ayun check papers && bigay grades... tick tock tick tockk. LUNCH naaaaaaaaa! ayunn. pmunta si BF sa room. weeeeeeeee^^ kaso uwi daw sya. u_u pauwi daw si mama && papa.. ^^ kaya ayun. di ako nag lunch. la gana! kaya ayun. upo sa room.. antay mag time.. tas AGAIN && AGAIN.. andun na si BF 10 mins before time. weeeeeeeee^^ lage nia talaga kini keep promise nya.. as always ^^ tas ayun tambay sya sa room. aba syempre welcome sya dun eh^^ tas wait sa time. nun time na .. sad nanaman.. kaya wait nanaman gang mag uwian.. :) tas somewhere in between 2-3pm. lumabas ako buy somthing andun sya.. 3-4 went to canteen buy somthing der din sya.. :) tas uwian.. i thought eb sya praktis. kaso none na daw kce raining na.. 4-5 heb pa kami class mapeh. tagal man si sir nag meryenda pa.. kaya nakatambay pa kami sa labas sandali. haha! kinuha nia bag qh and nagwait mag time.. ^^ after 15mins, dun na si sir.. pasok na again sa room. ayun nag test kame. waaa@@ sakit sa ulo.. di namin alam may surprise exam saming mga streetdancers. phew* hirap menn :| after answer. tick tock.. uwian na^^ linis time. aynakooo! one week magclean ang streetdancers:| pero ayus lan. kaya lan ^^ hahaha!! kaya ayun. after clean.. dun na labas na kami.. hanap qh c bf dun waiting .. kaya ayun. nilapitan qh then usap.. after ilan moments.. pasama ako sa knia sa canteen to buy something.. nun lapit na kami. bigla umulan ng malakas. pasira talaga.. HAHA!! kaya ayun. dun na kami sa canteen.. stranded kami! waaaaaaaa@@ lamig lamig syado. phew* no choice.. nag argue bout pabasa ba kami ulan or what.. haha! then nilabas nia ang shirt nia for praktis pra put qh sa head qh pra not daw mabas.. pro not qh like kase same lan,. mababasa lang din ako^^ haha!! kaya ayun.. sabi nia.. cge lakad na lang tyo.. kahet malakas ang ulan.. kaya ayun.. sbi ko game. haha! AYUN! BASANG BASA KAMING NAGLALAKAD SA ULAN! slow motion pa daw sya. hihi;)) ANG SAYA!^^ di ko malilimutan. ble xp

wula magawa.

shett. may class n bukas.

shett naman oh. yoko makita pag mumukha ni ex.
hahahahaha!

eh kce naman !! napakasinungaling!

wahahaha. pero ayus lan..

masaya na ako ngayon. blee xp

o sya sya. ^^
alis na ko. haha!
parating na si daddy!!

HOW HOT MY KISS ARE.. haha:3

Your Kisses Are Medium-Hot

Your kisses are definitely sexy, but you're not about to make anyone gasp for air. You take it slow and steady... and you ramp things up when you get the right signals. Your kissing style is adaptable and adept. And people who kiss you love it!

What kind of KISSER am i????

You're a Passionate Kisser

For you, kissing is about all about following your urges. If someone's hot, you'll go in for the kiss - end of story. You can keep any relationship sizzling with your steamy kisses. You're total spark plug, and your kisses are bound to get you in trouble

Do You Use the Internet Like a Man or a Woman?

Your Surfing Habits are 90% Female, 10% Male

If we had to guess, we would guess you are a woman. You use the internet to keep up with friends and family. You are likely to get online to communicate and share information. You are also to research things that directly effect your life, like health and travel. --- haha! riyal:D

Love is a game

just meant to be played.
Love is a phrase
just overly clichéd.

It's dominated by cheaters,
players, and rule-breakers.
Where three words often said
are lies spoken by fakers.

Love is an emotion
and hormones are the cause.
Love is perfection
that brings out your flaws.

Young ones are swayed
into believing that it's real.
Soon concious of mistakes,
next fear is what you feel.

Love is a wish
desired by so many loners.
Love is a sight
shown off by its owners.

It's a sad pathetic world
when love is only wanted,
for the sake of having it,
and for it to be flaunted.

Love is a drug,
addictive and strong.
Love is a toy.
and you're strung along.

The endings are painful,
yet again you will start,
to end with more lies and tears,
and another cruelly broken heart.

Love is a reason
to be treated like dirt.
Love is an excuse,
an excuse to get hurt.

crazy for you.

Missing you could turn from pain to pleasure, if I knew you were missing me too.



I'm crazy for you
Touch me once and you'll know it's true
I never wanted anyone like this
It's all brand new, you'll feel it in my kiss
I'm crazy for you,

crazy for you

&& that's the way i feel about him now.
im pretty sure that he feels the same way too.
nevertheless.

ILOVEHIM.

WHAT EACH KISS MEANS.

WHAT EACH KISS MEANS

-Kiss on the stomach; be redi,...,

-Kiss on the Forehead; expresing a lov 4 him/her

-Kiss on the Ear; seducing!,haha!

-Kiss on the Cheek; cute,

-Kiss on the Hand; I adore yah!..

-Kiss on the Neck; We belong together..

-Kiss on the Shoulder; I want you..

-Kiss on the Lips; I love you..

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What the gesture means...

-Holding Hands; We definitely like each other.

-Slap on the Butt; That's mine.

-Holding on tight; I don't want to let go.

-Looking into each other's Eyes; liking each oder,

-Playing with Hair; Tell me you love me.

-Arms around the Waist; I like you too much to let go.

-Laughing while Kissing; I am completely comfortable with you.

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Advice;

Don't ask for a kiss, take one.

If you were thinking about someone while reading this,

you're definitely in Love.

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CUTE:D

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100th post

yey. atlast^^ naka 100 post na rin ako. bleee xp

kapagod man this day.. shet lang..
punta school,then kesa mag review nag tambay
lang sa kiosk together with junior friends..^^

aus man day qh^^
andun man xa para sakin.
all day long.. :)

after school go pa kena lorraine sa san roque.
woooooooo \m/ haha! keber kosa kosa lan kame
yase alya. chiplaaaaaaaaaa! byen bale gad..

ahahha.

okena.

miss ko na digicam qh!:((
letche to da maxx. waaaaaaaaaa

tsktsk! careless masyado ba..
tskk! cnu man nakakuha nun..
answerte mo! kaso si lord na bahala
sayu.. haha!:D

IRONY

I hate how everyone compares love to Romeo and Juliet. Did anyone ever actually read that play? They met for two minutes, started hitting it off, & later on spoke briefly at a balcony. They were married three days later. Three days?! Keep in mind they hardly spoke then got married, did the big deed, and long story short, they died. They were just lust. I bet Juliet didn't even know Romeo's favorite color much less his birthday. I don't want a relationship like that. I want one where I know everything about him, one that’s more important than looks.

open your heart & mind to loving someone whether
she or he doesn't knows it or she or he knows it.


LOVE IS YOU & ME

Why am i always thinking of you
while I'm holding his hand?
why can't my mind and
my heart just simply understand?

You don't want me anymore
you hurt me and made me cry
I keep telling myself its your loss
you were the one that said goodbye

But if its your loss, then why
am I the one whose broken?
why can't i let go of all the
the words i left unspoken?

why am i holding his hand
and wishing it was you?
why can't i just forget you
and all the emptiness you left too..

Every time i hear your name
my heart can't help but skip a beat
and then it sinks and my eyes tear up
and i look down at my feet.

why couldn't you just love me
so i don't have to fake a smile
I'm trying to tell everyone that I'm OK
but they know I'm just hiding behind denial.

everyone except for you
can plainly see the truth
i don't love the guy whose hand I'm holding
the one i love is you

"Love has nothing to do with what you are expecting to get, it’s what you are expected to give — which is everything."

ok na ako!^^

The way I blush when I think of you,
The way I smile when I remember your words-
The way I almost wanna pass out when someone mentions you-
The way I wanna go to bed early,
Just so I can dream of you-

The way I wanna hold your hand,
The way I write your name on my schoolpapers-
The way I wish I shared every class with you,
The way my heart beats faster,
And the way I feel when I imagine you with me-

I'm just like every other girl,
Who's ever wanted to be held by someone else-
And I'm just like every story,
Hoping for a love-filled ending-

Because I'm human too,
And I somehow still feel-
After all I've been through,
I still feel love-

And I couldn't have been happier,
The night we met-

Already sharing our life stories,
I'm not alone anymore-
And I love you,
And you love me too...